Digital Cowboy

I’ve said it before here. I have more love than I deserve. I’ve lost track of how many times I’ve said it and don’t care to keep track. It’s always beautiful to be reminded.

For those of you that might be concerned about that little tiff between me and Janet, don’t. I’ve known her longer than I’ve known my wife. I know what to expect from her. Or so I thought. I never thought she’d do that publicly or I never would have have invited her here. She’s gone now. I’m sorry you were all subjected to that. I invited her here with the purest of motives. That’s a years long personal fight with ulterior motives that are ugly.

I knew y’all would love her. That’s why I invited her here. And then she made herself unlovable within the first couple of days. The thing is, I’ve already forgiven her and I know you all would, too. But she won’t be back anytime soon. She doesn’t want what we have… yet. I guess I was rushing things.

On a much happier note, I appreciate y’all defending and supporting me. It’s not necessary, but it’s definitely still appreciated. It always is.

Eaglewood even posted lyrics for me.

That was cool. In addition, it was lyrics from a band I’ve been meaning to check out and hadn’t yet. I read his post, went to iTunes and listened to a sample of the song and bought it. It’ll be on my iPod before the sun comes up.

God rocks and I love y’all.

I would guess that it’s because most people have never experienced it and have concluded that it doesn’t exist. That’s not true. The remainder have failed to recognize it and thus missed it, when it it was right in front of them. For some, it’s threatening because they’re violating it.

Love is not just important. It’s central to life. Why is that? Because God is love. (Professing atheism is no escape. It’s just dumb. There’s no such thing as an atheist and if there was, it wouldn’t be human or have a concept of love.)

Seeking pleasure is a trap. It’s foolish and offers no reward.

Standing up for what’s right and oozing love is always a good idea.

I’ve done both. I know whereof I speak.

Seeking pleasure, at it’s very best, is a fool’s fleeting distraction. It’s an illusion. A mirage. Not only do you end up with nothing, it will cost you.

Love is true and eternal and much, much better than a cheap orgasm.

I can do that for myself.

The sun’s comin’ up and I don’t even have my boots off yet. (No kiddng.) My daughters will be up soon.

Can somebody please make the world stop rotating on it’s axis? I can’t work effectively when they’re awake and I can’t get any sleep…. ever. There’s always work to be done.

Oh well. I’ve done it well before and I’ll adjust to it again. I just didn’t expect it to take this long.

Makes no difference. You could double the price. I’d still gladly pay it and feel like a thief.

My kids miss Mommy. If I was the evil bastard portrayed in court during the custody battle, I’d just say, “Tough. Mommy doesn’t care about you.”

But that’s not at all true and I’m not that guy. So I just say, “Me, too, sweetie. Every single day.” It hurts me to deal with it at all, but it’s easy to say that because that’s absolutely true.

Pulled into Sonic tonight and heard the end of a song that made me think of her. I almost cried. The kids noticed and asked and….

Behold the power of iPod! When you have everything musically important in your pocket… Within seconds, the song started over, at higher volume, with better sound quality and right in our own truck.

I sang it to them. “I can’t stop loving you. No matter what you say or do. If you look in to my heart, I think you’ll find that I can’t stop loving you.” I cried a little while I sang and tried to distract them from my emotion with fun – tickling and such. They laughed and had fun, but, unfortunately, never missed the point.

We had an interesting discussion at bed time tonight that was related. I haven’t told anyone what it was and I don’t intend to.

Ever. Not even under court order. Forget it. Black robes are ugly and my children are not.

It was a beautiful thing between them and me.

Oops. Looks like I’ve drifted off into “deranged” again.

My unattainable vixen, Heidi, recently mentioned that she was addicted to 24. I can kinda see that if you’re watching it on DVD, like she is. On DVD, I’d probably get lost in it, too. I’ve seen a couple episodes of it and liked it but I refused to watch it because it’s the most episode-time-faithfulness requiring show ever on TV and they kept moving it! I was always lost. It was like pursuing a woman trying to figure out where she would be next and what I’d missed since the last time I saw her.

I won’t commit that kind of time and effort to anything on TV. (I won’t even do that pursuing a woman.) Especially on a major network where they move things around from one time or day to another completely schizophrenically just about every week. (Don’t even say TiVo to me…. that wouldn’t solve the problem and will start another rant.) Even when they’re not shifting stuff around, I don’t have time to play their “tonight’s a re-run and next week may or may not be” game. I grew up in a time where there was a TV season. Ya got original episodes from September through the spring and then re-runs all summer, when I had better things to do than watch TV anyway.

It was a predictable schedule.

On top of that, at least ninety percent of what’s on TV now sucks. I mean, it sucks bad! I rarely find anything worth watching on a major network, in “primetime”. “Reality” TV is not reality or anything worth watching.

I have gotten hooked on the CSI franchises lately, though. (The original is much better than the others, but CSI: Miami is also better than CSI: NY) Still, the only reason I find them “addictive” is because, much like what Heidi’s doing with the 24 DVDs, I’m recording them in multiple episodes with the PVR and watching them back-to-back, whenever I feel like it, and without commercial interruption.

I had high hopes for Numb3rs and Criminal Minds this year. I should’ve known that if they were using that silly script-kiddie crap right in the title, Numb3rs would suck. It did and it does. It’s flat out preposterous. It’s insulting to people that understand the concept and way over the heads of everyone else. It’s not smart. It’s stupid masquerading as smart. It won’t see a second season. I’ll bet you.

Criminal Minds, on the other hand, started out really good. The first few episodes had me riveted and I was thinking to myself then, “How can they make a whole series out of this? There’s not enough material to maintain this kind of quality for long.”

I was right.

It blows now and is almost as stupid as Numb3rs and everything else on network TV.

It took Miami Vice at least three seasons to get as ridiculous as most of this new stuff does half way through the first one. Bonanza and Gunsmoke both ran for decades and never got quite as dumb.

Thank God for TV Land.