I’ve taken a couple of days off from blogging, commenting and chatting because it suddenly became apparent to me that my house was out of order. Once again. I spent the first part of the last 48 hours or so just crying out to God begging for His help and most of the latter repenting and getting things straightened out with Daddy.
After whining and begging like a baby off and on for a couple hours, I finally wised up and said, “Father, where have I missed it? I know better than this and I know that the lack of response I’m getting from You isn’t Your fault. Show me everywhere I’ve missed it and how I got to this point where You seem so distant when I feel like I need You the most.”
He’s faithful. When you finally ask the right question, He gives you an immediate response and it will be thorough, too.
He showed me all of it, I repented and He immediately responded, “It’s OK, son. Let’s get you patched up and move on. We’ve got work to do.” He is so good. All the time.
I’m sharing this because, though some of what He showed me is none of your business, some of the rest directly relates to y’all that are regular readers around here. I feel foolish and ashamed now at what this blog has become over recent weeks. It’s ugly and I didn’t even realize it was happening. I’ve shared before that even though I didn’t realize it at the time, Daddy started this blog for a reason. For a long time it was quite beautiful and I’ve allowed it to become contaminated at the same time that I allowed myself to be contaminated.
The other reason I’m sharing this is that how it happened is a hard lesson that I’ve already had to learn more than once and maybe by repeating what many of you already know, I can be a reminder and save you some grief.
It all happened very subtly and I didn’t even see it. It was so gradual. Channel surfing or watching reruns of “Bonanza” instead of the great Christian programming that feeds me. Through a series of individual and seemingly insignificant changes, I went from having praise and worship playing in four different rooms of my house 24/7 a couple of months ago, to having none playing over the last couple of weeks. At the same time, I was immersing myself in chat and blog commenting. It was all with wonderful Christian people, but it was also one of the things taking my time away from the Word. Also, again, without me even noticing.
When I asked God to show me what was blocking me from being able to receive from Him, Holy Spirit simply said two words. “Unrepented sin.” That baffled me because I had already taken inventory. So I asked for clarification and was immediately sent to Proverbs 4:20-27, specifically verse 21. And then to a few of the many other places we are commanded to keep His Word always before us.
Oops. Yeah. I messed up there, huh? If anything in your life has become more important than the Word, you’re headed for destruction.
This blog has certainly been showing it. Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks and I have been putting mostly junk in there for a while now. When I scrolled back down this page tonight I realized there’s been mostly silliness and junk here for quite a while. But Daddy and are square again now. I’ve gotten my priorities back in order and it will start to be reflected here, effective immediately.